I didn't realize before my Vacation that when I left my apartment, walked out of each studio saying "I'll see you when I get back" and failed to visit my family due to lack of time, that I would not be coming home. Anybody would tell you that my apartment was awesome, that I was the luckiest girl in the world having just gotten engaged to the man of my dreams, teaching at six of the most amazing studios in Toronto while running a business revolving around my passions, not to mention being surrounded by the support and love of all of my lemons in the Lululemon Community ! There are moments where I feel absolutely crazy for not coming home when I think of all of these things....but, deep down, while in Toronto, I knew I wanted more. Something different. Less grey and more green.
This place is BEAUTIFUL ! All of the capitals, bolds and italics in the world would still leave the description understated. It's the kind of beauty no picture can capture in it's entirety, you need to see it and feel it. The people are so nice that until you become accustomed to it, you almost doubt their sincerity.
I vacationed in Jamaica once, and there I experienced what was known as Jamaica Time and referred to as "Go Slow". I didn't quite understand until I actually spent my entire day at a car wash, there we ate lunch and dinner, got drunk and by the time the car was done there was a full out dance party and no one wanted to leave. Well here in what we've come to call the Kootenay's, there is 'Kootenay Time'. It's like all of your yogic lessons are being painfully forced upon you while you keep trying to do things in Toronto time. No one is in a hurry to do anything or be anywhere, at least I haven't met them yet. In Toronto, a lot of the time, you had to aggressively elbow some time for yourself, time to be present. Here? Be present, there's time. It feels like your at the cottage all of the time but you also have everything that you need at an arms reach and a great community.
With this change of pace, there are hardships in paradise. With a smaller town, comes less work. I taught at more yoga studios in Toronto than exist in Nelson. So I need a job. Job hunting is and always will be on the top of my most hated list, but I do it and have been doing it for a month with no luck. Thankfully, I am teaching which is bringing me great solace and I know that in time, it will all work out. Change is hard.
I am a swan diver. I always have been and I always will be. I do crazy things for crazy reasons and only while I am on my way down do I realize I still need to learn to fly. I need the change, the fear, the doubt, the possibility of failure, the shock and the excitement to take action and grow, to make big decisions and to follow my dreams.
I have every intention of continuing to teach and plan to create online classes so that those of you who wish to, can do my classes from home. Stay in touch with me on my Blog, Facebook Page and Sign up for my Newsletter on my homepage so you don't miss any videos or announcements and so I don't lose you !
I miss you all !
P.S. That's the view from my house !